the struggle to create

It has been a year since painting, my energies have been more focused on writing. But there are four paintings that stare at me every day. I know I will go back to them. The haunting presence of unfinished work is like a shadow reminding one of the light overhead, and the direction the light is going - but only if we notice. Where to paint is an issue. The t.v. room is not ideal. I want someplace away from the house, but cannot afford one. Place is an important piece in the creative process. If I do not feel comfortable to relax and imagine and make a mess than the restraint of the space chokes off my creative energy. This seems to be my problem. Time is another piece of the creative journey, there is so many conflicting stress pulls on me for time that it is hard to have extended periods to create. And my seeming choice to always do and have time for others and not myself is another drawback.