the need to claim oneself

I am finding that much of my energy is spent helping others, enabling other people to find and discover their creative self and understand themselves more fully. It is very meaningful to be a part of this process. It is like a coach bringing along a great talent to be the best player that they can be in a game situation. Yet there is also the need to be the player, to be the one creating and emerging myself. It is similar to the struggle that a teacher of art sometimes has to find time and the energy to also create one's own art. Whether it is the need for a place to be still, or the time to be still, or the will to be still in order to shift gears and allow myself to think and create, the need to create will emerge one way or another. It may emerge as anger if frustrated enough; it may emerge as depression, if denied enough; it may emerge as endless rambling and insistent opinions forced upon others if not given its own space. One way or another it will emerge.